Here’s what she wrote...
“I remember my freedom from drinking like it was yesterday…”
It was a sunny Saturday morning in July, 2015...
The light streamed in so bright it stung my bloodshot eyes...
It made my splitting headache feel even worse, like lightning piercing my brain...
My stomach felt hollow with that familiar queasy sting...
Of yet another hangover...
And another beautiful day, wasted...
“Damn it!” I said to myself, “I did it again!”
I’d gone out with my two best friends Debbie and Rachel and a few others from work the night before, and as usual drank way to much...
It’s embarrassing to ADMIT now, but I don’t even know how I got home that night...
This day-after-day effect of drinking night-after-night wasn’t working for me like it used to when I was younger, especially since I’d become a professional woman with a career...
I’m telling you... if people knew how much I drank they'd be horrified!
Most days my mind was in a fog and I felt slow…
I was masquerading around work with a hangover trying to talk intelligently and get things done... and it was getting harder and harder to pull off.
I was getting paranoid that everyone knew I was a heavy drinker...
The month before I had even gone to a few AA meetings... But that wasn’t for me.
I not an alcoholic, I was just drinking to much… to often.
Still, my little habit was taking more and more of a toll on my life...
Hurting my health, my work, my relationships, and even my kids…
Everyone knows to much alcohol damages your brain and organs, and yet I just seemed to ignore all that…
You’d think I'D PAY ATTENTION to how often I was feeling so sick and strung out, especially now that I’m getting older.
When I was in university in my 20’s, it was acceptable to drink a lot and it didn’t affect me as much…
But now that I’m in my late 40’s… it’s not such a GOOD look anymore...
I gained weight over the years and had this “booze belly” I couldn’t get rid of...
I’d stopped going to the gym... I just didn’t have the energy anymore and was in a bad mood a lot...
Day after day I’d make promises with myself to not drink, and by late afternoon I was already betraying my own deal... I’d just ignore it all...
When I tried to control my drinking, I’d get this desperate feeling like it was being taken away from me, and then I’d drink even more and feel even worse the next day...
It was such a vicious cycle of setting myself up just to fail...
No matter how hard I tried, I just couldn’t get a handle on my drinking...
All I could think of every day was getting to 5:00 so I could drink again!
I mean SERIOUSLY... how the heck was I supposed to get through the day and handle all the stress and B.S. life throws at me without numbing out to alcohol?!
And what about when I go out?
Was I supposed to not drink, or have just one drink? ...I don’t think so!
But I gotta admit that things had gotten more edgy…
It’s like my husband had turned into The Wine Police…
He’d see me pour another glass and I get that look...
“Are you SURE you need another, Hannah?”
YES I NEED ANOTHER Jack!!
He should have been EXCITED I was drinking because his chances for sex were far better if I was drunk!
It used to piss me off watching him nurse his ONE little drink all night…
It was so annoying to be around people who just couldn’t LIVE a little!
But then again... I wonder what people were thinking of ME…
And then it happened…
One Friday night I was having dinner with the kids while Jack was on a work trip...
I had two glasses of wine while I cooked dinner, and another big glass with dinner...
Can you believe...?
My daughter was only 12 and she actually asked me if I was going to KEEP drinking after dinner!
She looked so troubled and nervous…
I lied to her of course, but I cringed and felt really small... was this really me?
My son was sitting there too...
He’s 16, so I know he chimed in because he was just starting to drive.
He asked me if I thought it would be SAFER to call a taxi from now on when I go out!
I don’t know which child’s question was worse – the one who had some HOPE I
would say, “No, I’m not drinking more tonight...” or the one who knew I would drink more and wanted to make sure I didn’t DIE...
Who knew THEY knew about my heavy drinking?!
You’d think that’d be enough to get me to NOT go out that night with my co-workers as planned...
But I did... And as usual I had gotten in those few “pre-drinks” before I left, just to make sure I’d get enough.
Then as I sat on my couch the next morning feeling so miserable, I thought back on all the times Jack and the kids knew I got drunk again...
And again…
And again…
I felt so bad about what I’d become…
What I was teaching them!
It used to be that drinking erased all my problems, at least for a while...
But now it had become my BIGGEST PROBLEM...
I did drive myself out to meet my friends for more drinks after dinner that night with the kids…
And I knew I shouldn't have been driving because I was clearly over the limit…
But I said to myself "I am fine to drive” even though I secretly knew I wasn't.
Who was I kidding? Pretty scary, huh?
And sure as the sun rose the next day…
I woke up with the most wicked hangover on yet another precious Saturday morning...
I was so sick I couldn’t even go to my daughter’s soccer game…
And I’ll never forget the look she gave me as she walked out the door with my husband...
Then it hit me…
It was right there, right on my couch on that fateful Saturday morning, I decided
THAT WAS IT!
It was time to take my life back...
Enough lying…
Enough making excuses…
Enough missing out on the REAL ME, and my one shot at living the best life I can with my loved ones...
I was going to find a way to control my drinking and stop alcohol from ruling my world... or DIE trying.
That’s when I found Georgia’s program...
I have to tell you how RIDICULOUSLY EASY it was to solve what seemed to me like a huge drinking problem...
All I did was lay on my couch and LISTEN to a week’s worth of Georgia’s recordings...
I looked forward to that special time just for me, relaxing on my couch...
Each day I laid there listening to the program, I found myself feeling less and less like I needed drinking to get through the day…
It even worked when I fell asleep during some of recordings!
Best of all... I TRULY didn’t miss all the alcohol I used to drink... That was a first for me and it felt REALLY GOOD.
The cool thing is... before I had time to mess up or dismiss it... it was ALREADY WORKING!
Even from DAY 1... I was consistently drinking less... and TRULY OK with it.
The feeling I had about drinking was just... DIFFERENT.
I didn’t feel that sense of struggle anymore... and I still don’t today.
For the first time, I was able to understand what was really behind my excessive drinking...
I learned the REAL reasons my drinking got so out of control… and now I'm easily (and happily) able to keep it to a couple glasses...
This program made my entire life SO MUCH BETTER…
My body, and the way I think and feel has really CHANGED…
In just a few months I lost 26 pounds...
Without all those alcohol calories dumping into my body every day the weight immediately started to fall off...
All the bloating in my big "booze belly" went away too...
I finally have a flat stomach that looks and feels so much BETTER!
With my "drinking fog" lifted, I now SEE what’s going through my head more clearly...
And when problems come up, I can deal with life without using alcohol as my crutch.
I'm sharper and have MUCH MORE ENERGY, so I get way more done at work and home :)
I don’t need to drink to feel comfortable in my own skin anymore, even when I go out to a party.
In fact I don’t even have to get drunk to have sex anymore…
That’s HUGE for me!
My biggest BREAKTHROUGH is that I don’t need to drink at the end of a day to get rid of stress and relax…
It’s really given me my life back...
And the beauty of this program is that I can still drink!
I just drink LESS now…
In fact I drink LESS and ENJOY it more… what more could you WANT?!